Ian David Philpot

Ian David Philpot shares a few things he found on StumbleUpon.

If you haven’t discovered StumbleUpon, then let me give you a summary of how it works: 1) go to StumbleUpon.com, 2) signup or login, 3) hit the “Stumble” button on the top left, 4) wave goodbye to the next two hours. It basically sends you to random websites. You can setup your interests and it will send you to websites that fall into those categories.

So I found out about StumbleUpon almost a year ago, and there are a few things I’ve found that are interesting. One of those is oneword.com. It gives you one word and you write about it for sixty seconds. It’s pretty awesome. There’s also a cool graphic I found that explains the sleep levels in the movie Inception. Totally helped.

But on Monday, I found a cool blog post from Max Andrew Dubinsky’s website, makeitmad.com. The post, “A Gentleman’s Guide to Staying Cool in the 21st Century,” and it rocked my socks off. And as of yesterday, Max added a post titled “A Gentleman’s Guide to the Holidays.” Another winner, but it gets bonus points for being seasonal.

So, while I’m just copping out from writing a real blog by ungentlemaningly gushing about some guy whose blog I just started reading, seriously check him out. It’s like my mom has told me since I was 12, “Good writers read good writers.”

Stephen and Henry

The cycle of a student or a teacher is a tough one to break. There is the excitement of the new term with new classes and books. There are new faces and routines. This time there will not be any grammar errors in my syllabi, or the teacher will not be super mean but rather fun and interesting.

Unfortunately, I find myself at the end of that cycle right in the middle of Advent. It seems unfair. Someone needs to move Christmas to September or maybe February. It is hard to look at the faces of the shining kids, decked out in their best shirt or dress, and not to interrupt them in their “pitchy” rendition of “It Came Upon a Midnight Clear”.

I do not want to be the Grinch, but at the end of term, that is what I am. All the potential has been spent, and it is the end of the line. I must become the Dream-Crusher. I know that it is an oversimplification. My students get what they earned.

So, it is hard to not run up the aisle and say, “Stop! Stop being so hopeful. most of you will struggle your entire lives. Yes, toys are fun, but you will grow up and lose the excitement and curiosity (or have it tested or drugged out of you). You will become bored and sad.”

But then that frustration and inclination relies on a misunderstanding. Unlike what I hear on the radio and TV, and often from a variety of pulpits, my faith is not a matter of making everything ok, at least not yet. The promise of the Messiah includes with the “Joy to the World” and “Gloooorrrrria”‘s a promise of the suffering and victory of Good Friday and Easter.

So, just as my terms carry with them a certain amount of sadness, nativity scenes always carry a good deal of grief in my heart as well. I used to drive by a church with a Nativity creche right in front of the building, and right behind that small, plastic baby Jesus, with his entourage, was a looking cross the size of a building.

While I can find joy and excitement at the promise of the season, the reality of the life ahead of that small baby humbles me nearly to tears. Within the cries for food and warmth at his beginning on earth were the tears of “Jesus wept.”. Those small hands and feet would be pierce with nails and left to hang as he struggled for breath on the cross. Those eyes, still bleary from birth, would greet Mary in the Garden on the morning of his resurrection and be surprised that she did not know him.

That is real potential, and I wish that I could give my students just a small fraction of that.

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Stephen Swanson teaches as an assistant professor of English at McLennan Community College. Aside from guiding students through the pitfalls of college writing and literature, he spends most of his time trying to remain  aware of popular culture, cooking, and enjoying time with his wife and son. He holds degrees in Communications (Calvin College), Film Studies (Central Michigan University), and Media and American Culture Studies (Bowling Green State University. In addition to editing a collection, Battleground States: Scholarship in Contemporary America, he has forthcoming projects on Johnny Cash and depiction of ethics in detective narratives.

Michael Dean Clark

This is the first in a series of thoughts on how place shapes and is shaped by the stories we tell.

In 1993, I left  Encinitas, California – a suburb of San Diego roughly 25 miles north of the city – for what I thought would be a quick four years of college in L.A. Then four years became 17 and I accepted the fact that my hometown would be merely a conversation point for the rest of my life.

In the process, I devised a way to keep San Diego present in my life - by writing about it. The concept came to me in the middle of my first Midwestern winter (which looked a little like the one they’re having now). I can almost pinpoint the moment I decided to make the Southern of Southern California my geographical muse.

It happened on a day when they cancelled school in Milwaukee. Because it was cold. Not a snow day. A cold day.

Coming from a place where I never once had to shovel the sunshine off my driveway, this was frightening to me. They actually shut down school because there was a strong possibility of children getting frostbite while waiting for the bus.

I’d never felt homesickness as actual nausea before. Actually, it was more like creative morning sickness (at least, it seemed to feel like my wife’s descriptions of the actual, baby-induced morning sickness she was having at the time). I found myself thinking about the beach, random snapshots of winter mornings with no clouds or snow, wearing shorts when I went Christmas caroling.

At first, these memories were anti-nostalgia. They mocked me with their warm breezes and complete disconnection from my reality. A quick visit to the coast during the Christmas break only made the feelings worse when I settled into the next three months of outdoor icebox conditions.

The memories continued with the cold and it wasn’t until a friend of mine inadvertently suggested a solution that I found productive use for them. Craig and I were in a writing workshop together and I told him a story about a guy who wore nothing but an adult diaper and Birkenstocks while sitting next to the convenience shop I frequented as a kid. Craig asked why I hadn’t written a story about him and, with no good answer, I set out to do so.

But to tell diaper guy’s story I had to tell a dozen others. And with each, the winter grew a bit shorter and the reason for my being there a bit clearer. By April, the snow had melted and left behind the shape of what would become my first book-length manuscript.

It seemed odd to me at the time that a story contained in a five-mile stretch of the Coast Highway in San Diego was the product of a Wisconsin winter. Now that I’ve moved back to the West Coast (something that seems more dreamlike than less the longer I am here), it feels only natural.

I left San Diego to find it; to discover how deeply ingrained this place is in me and how strongly I feel about sharing it with others. Living here again with that new perspective only makes that more apparent.  I don’t know if I’ll ever sell that first book, but maybe that wasn’t the point.     

Michael Dean Clark is an author of fiction and nonfiction and an Assistant Professor of Writing at Point Loma Nazarene University. He lives in San Diego with his wife and 2.8 children. 

Deanna Hershiser

A few thoughts on writing very personal essays.

My own view is that, if anything, what is wrong with most memoirs and autobiographical poems is that they don’t go far enough in their confessions; they myopically fudge the details, the close nitty-gritty of self-observation.
~ Phillip Lopate, Getting Personal

My essay “Memorial Day” first appeared in Relief Issue 2.3. Recently it was reprinted in the anthology Saying Goodbye, released by Dream of Things. It’s a story that no doubt has confused some people — the writing is likely fine, having been edited capably by Lisa Ohlen Harris, but I tend to get a certain reaction. “You are so brave,” I will hear. Which translates in my mind to the unasked, “Why put this out there?” Or something closer to, “Could I, should I, share my greatest failures with the world?”

“Memorial Day” contains my tale of hurting my husband, Tim, in the worst way more than 25 years ago. The story of our near divorce is woven within a weekend of remembering in 2006, when Tim and I returned to the coastal town where our disaster had happened.

For better or worse I’m someone who tells these certain things — not all of my life’s private details, not even very many — but the intense bits I believe I have learned from. Usually in person it’s after I’ve known you a while. Doing so in writing is a long process; often it feels like bushwhacking a rough trail between my emotion-filled memories and the sense and sensibilities of readers’ minds. As creative nonfiction expert Dinty W. Moore says in his book Crafting the Personal Essay, “The private essay hides the author. The personal essay reveals.” I don’t wish to blather about private issues no one can relate to. Rather, I want to reveal something of the deepest truths that have invaded my being.

The eyes of the me telling my “Memorial” story now view life with a spiritual appreciation that the early-1980s me could only spot as a glimmer. Part of my continuing closure became releasing the setting of my great drama, letting it sink, so to speak, into the ocean. But there’s also a part of my ongoing way of life bound up in lessons from this past event. I’m a person of faith. For me that has come to mean putting together all the evidence I can regarding truth and seeing what it adds up to. Before I royally blew it that time in my twenties, I didn’t understand what mercy might look like. While I could see others’ need for forgiveness, I couldn’t grasp my deficit. I was basically good; I made mistakes. But bring push to shove, and, hey, sure — it’s me, remember? — I always chose the right path, the godly way. Until, of course, I didn’t. Excuses no longer held up in my own mind for my actions. I reached a clear fork in the road and to go forward with belief meant accepting that I needed something more.

Would I recommend this form of writing for very many? Not really. I should likely say run from the awkwardness. Turn to fiction; find some creative alternative. It’s certainly not a mandate for Christians. The style of “confessional” writing I’m striving to do isn’t bound to particular theological perspectives. Though it tends to be about finding wisdom and truth, its focus is individual, existential.

If you can go there, and if you have to, then read and write the very personal. You may find yourself involved in what the amazing nonfictionist Phillip Lopate speaks of when he says, “I am endlessly interested in the wormy thoughts and regrets and excuses and explanations that people have for their behavior. ‘Confessional’ is, to me, a descriptive term, not a derogatory one….Honesty has been, for me, the one lodestar to which I never stop aspiring in print. I don’t say I attain ‘honesty,’ but the very fact that I try to reach it gives my work, at least to my own eyes, a formal thrust, a dynamic, a topography.”

Deanna Hershiser’s essays have appeared in Runner’s World, BackHome Magazine, Relief, and other places. She lives with her husband in Oregon and blogs at deannahershiser.com/stories-glimmer.